Best ever.
Sweaty hands, pulse rate increasing, and a little bead of sweat rolls down the side of my head. I try to take a deep breath, but it doesn’t do anything to me. I look into her eyes and see her pupils dilating and it puts a really knotted feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wince a bit as I gulp something the size of a boulder and as I bring up my hand closer to her, my heart rate rises even more, it feels like my heart about to explode from this tension. She puts her hand up to mine and we make the most memorable exchange one could ever ask for. An overwhelming happiness rushes through my body, all of that for this moment. It finally happened. I got my First Edition holograpic Chariziard card MINT CONDITION.
#nergasmwhat a knockout (2)
so, this is supposed to be a positive post but unfortunately i’m gonna start off on something somewhat negative.
Note: This is going to be very vague and general and most likely for my vent/rant purpose, ask me about it if you REALLY wanna know and i might tell you
So, about that first rant with meeting new places and people etc, and then i mentioned something about getting to know a person and blah blah blah i feel like i screwed it up… Yeah, I’m getting really REALLY overanalytical about this and that whole day I couldn’t stop thinking about it! it was horrible. anyways, i found a way to relax and chill about it. as the night nearly ended, my good mood ended. i had an unexpected encounter and put me back to where i was before. #sigh
alright, enough about the low of the night. i got some friendships fixed and i finally got to go home. I can finally get my stuff and head back again tomorrow. It’s good to see everyone again.
Silva-Belfort fight was today [UFC 126] and boy that was awesssssssome. silva wins with a front kick to the jaw of Belfort and knocked the hell out of him. Everyone in Buffalo Wild Wings went craaaaazy, and my mouth just dropped to the ground when it happened. I’m excited to start up that Brazilian jiu-jitsu class so i can learn a lot of things. I’m gonna buy a punching bag tomorrow and some hand wrap so when I run into things [as mentioned above], i just need to wrap my hands and just go at my bag. Good stuff.
Last note: Writing something positive for whatever i write negative is hard.
Huh. Something to work on.
Alright, Gabe Bondoc time. He always puts me in a good mood.
I lied.
…about posting
One very last thing… i’ll make a graphic fixed background so the black wouldn’t be so harsh and eye-straining. it was a bitch to find one and i still had to change it up. Maybe i should brush up on my HTML/CSS skills. hah.
the first time is usually really uncomfortable (1)
Wow, alright… first time to make a tumblr and actually use it. Kind of awkward, but quite therapeutic at the same time (haha, like an e-diary!) «<just made me lose my man card… I think. This whole college deal’s a huge culture shock to me, new people, new environment, new situations. It almost just makes you want to be like… Whoa whoa whoa, slow down life! You’re moving quicker than I can handle. It really doesn’t help that I was listening to deathcab. So right now, I’m feeling a little emo/melancholy. (thank you #8tracks)
Anyways, as you go to new places and meet new people.. there’s this someone that stands out and you’d want to get to know that person and when you do, you don’t want to screw things up. Weeeeeelllllll, I think I’ve already done that. But for those of you who know me really well, I tend to rely on my logic and statistics to prove myself wrong without finding the truth in things. Anyways, this person just happens to catch my attention and perhaps I’ve waited too long to pursue it and that is where I had screwed up. I dunno, i’ve always heard that to figure out a woman, you’d have to actually be a woman, but for some women… they don’t even know why they do what they do. it’s only the first few times we’ve talked and i’ve started to develop a deeper feeling for this person. Unfortunately, I think i’ve waited too long [unless i’m blowing this out of complete proportion and the opposite is thinking the same thing, but we’ll see.]
the more you, whoever you are, would read my posts.. i’m sure you can understand my ridiculous thought processes and going off into pointless tangents and ramble and mumble [if you ever hear me speaking my mind]. This first post is up close and personal, i apologize for the slap on the face with my thoughts. I’m sure that most of the other ones will be a little less in-your-face and maybe about new photography techniques or just stuff i’ve stumbled upon. Hopefully I’d post something at least once a day just to get my thoughts going and maybe figure things out for myself (or you could help me figure it out by putting your two cents in!)
-J
